Friday, May 14, 2021

Minding our Mental Health

 From the 5/14/2021 newsletter

 

Perspective/Opinion

 

Minding our Mental Health

 

Toni Gray - Office of Diversity and Inclusion

 

Ms. Gray writes about her family’s experiences and how unconscious bias disproportionally affects communities of color …

 


I was nineteen when I got the call. My mom was in the hospital. She had swallowed several pills. She had attempted suicide. The emotions that filled my body included anger, sadness, shame, and back to anger. My mom, a mother of seven, felt that the best thing she could do to solve her anguish, her sadness, was to take her own life and leave the lives that she had help create; searching for answers and never getting them.

Fortunately, my mom survived, but she would continue to deal with depression and anxiety. It is something that runs in our family, and I would soon lose two cousins at early ages to suicide.

As I reflect on why I wanted to write about this painful subject, it was clear that my personal experience was important to me. One of my favorite quotes is: “Make your mess your message.” Isn't it true how so many of us suffer in silence because we are ashamed of the personal struggles that we face, the trauma that we hold, and the doubts that we cater to? They hold us in a guilty place where we do not often know who we can turn to and trust with our deepest, painful secrets.

However, mental health is becoming less of a stigma and I am so grateful for that. We are opening up the door for conversation and connection which allows compassion to reign. But we dare remind ourselves that part of the mental health stigma depends on the color of your skin and your culture.

In the African American/Black community, there is a strong spiritual basis that we hold to our hearts that is handed down in tradition by our great grandmothers and grandfathers, and our ancestors. That is the idea that a higher power can heal all our illnesses. And that if we have depression or anxiety, we are not relying on the higher power enough which compounds the feelings of guilt that we may already be holding. Our faith is called into question. This stigma has plagued the African American/Black community for many decades. Besides that, we still have the effects of systemic racism where African American/Blacks were denied access to health care and now even in the 21st century health care still remains an access and economic issue plagued with unconscious biases.

When you are trying to open up your heart with innermost thoughts, you want someone that you can trust and someone who may relate to you. Compounded by the economic restraints and access to therapist is that often you cannot find a therapist that looks like you if you are a person of color. They say representation matters. I second that and elevate that it is imperative. People feel connected to people who look like them in a society that villainizes you for looking a certain way. We need to find people who can relate to the unique societal struggles that people of color face.

As an institution, I believe we are truly committed to creating equity in healthcare. We are committed to building awareness with intentionality around intersectionalities that people come in with and finding ways to address unconscious biases that impact health care outcomes for people of color. That includes the mental strain of poverty, police brutality and profiling, the killing of Black and Brown bodies by police officers, on top of the ongoing effects of this pandemic. We have much work to do in the mental health space, but I am grateful that we are now understanding that our mental health matters just like any other health concerns we may have.

As I reflect on my mom’s journey of resilience, I am comforted by her story. She realized the need to see a therapist to get the tools she needed to deal with her depression and anxiety. Hearing stories like this makes us feel not so alone in our pain. We are human; we bend but we do not have to break. However, we need the resources accompanied by compassion so that we can stand up straight again and embrace a full life we all deserve to live.

 


Toni Gray serves as the Learning and Growth Program Coordinator in the Office of Diversity and Inclusion at the Medical College of Wisconsin. She’s been with MCW for 10 years. She oversees, leads, and creates learning and growth experiences in the equity, diversity, and inclusion space.

 

 

Why Suicide Prevention, Kerri?

 From the 5/14/2021 newsletter


Perspective/Opinion

 

Why Suicide Prevention, Kerri?

 

Kerri Corcoran writes about why she has found a calling working is suicide prevention and provides resources for those who are in crisis …

 


Hello, I’m Kerri, the Student Behavioral Health and Resource Navigator in the MCW Office of Student Services. I am active in the MCW Suicide Prevention Council and in the implementation of a pilot suicide prevention program at the Central Wisconsin Campus.

I have been reflecting on the idea of my “why” and, honestly, feeling a bit…underwhelmed. As a mental health professional, one might assume there is some existential reason behind my career choice and dedicated focus on promoting wellness. There must have been some major life event which led to this greater purpose of supporting those who find themselves feeling hopeless and in crisis. The truth is that I have been very fortunate to not have had a significant personal experience with suicide. As a licensed clinician working in community mental health over the past eight years, I have had experiences with assisting those in crisis and having clients die by suicide. Even when taking these difficult experiences into consideration, I found myself questioning my own ability to claim some part of this initiative. I know there are individuals serving alongside me in this council who have been through some of the biggest challenges this world has to offer. Is it possible to have Imposter Syndrome as a member of a council? Apparently so.

And then, it dawned on me. Maybe, this is the point? This is the purpose of developing a program which trains as many individuals at MCW as possible in heightening comfort around discussing suicide, in training student peer supports, and making sure everyone is aware of the mental health resources available. Suicide prevention is not the job of just those who struggle with mental health, or who have lost a loved one to suicide, or who have struggled with suicidal ideation in the past. Suicide prevention is the responsibility of everyone.

Everyone at MCW needs to be a piece of preventing suicide and showing those within our community that we care; really care. Common humanity is my “why.” Knowing that life is truly worth living, unconditionally, is my “why.” My love for my community is my “why.” 

And I think that might just be enough.

 

If you or someone you know is struggling, please reach out! See the linked decision trees to learn more about the available resources at your campus.

Milwaukee Campus “Assisting Student in Distress or Crisis”

Green Bay “Assisting Student in Distress or Crisis”

Central Wisconsin “Assisting Student in Distress or Crisis”

 

 

Kerri Corcoran is a Licensed Professional Counselor and Clinical Substance Abuse Counselor. As a Behavioral Health and Resource Navigator, she provides students with a safe and secure space to talk about challenges and work closely to implement solutions. She works in the Office of Student Services at MCW.

 

 

Coaching is Vital to Preventing Burnout in Physicians

From the 5/14/2021 newsletter


Perspective/Opinion


Coaching is Vital to Preventing Burnout in Physicians


Brett Linzer, MD


Dr. Linzer shares how some of his peers suffered, then explains how coaching and intentional support can build resilience, improve the work environment, and restore meaning in our work …



My internal medicine/pediatrics friend Alex Djuricich, MD killed himself a few years ago. He was one of my resident partners and eventually became the internal medicine/pediatrics program director at the Indiana University School of Medicine.  He was a mentor to many internal medicine/pediatrics physicians and a father of two teenage daughters. When he died, I promised myself that I would do what I could to help other physicians.  It has taken me a long time but, with some of the work I am doing, I feel as though I am making good on that promise. 

I spent years trying to figure out why doctors hurt themselves. I am not sure if I have figured out much, but I have learned a lot along the way.  

One of the most important things I have learned is that I do not have all the answers to my life. But, I found a lot of the answers through coaching.


Why is coaching important?

The idea that we, as physicians, can figure everything out on our own and not rely on others to help us is, at best, a poor strategy for success and, at worst, a dangerous myth. Physicians are highly trained and skilled in certain areas but may lack mastery in relationships and communication. After residency, there is little emphasis on personal growth and especially emotional development.

Coaching can bring wide-ranging benefits to any organization. Most experts agree the cost of replacing one physician, including lost revenue, can be around $1M. A well-coached physician is more likely to stay in their current position and, therefore, save the cost of recruiting a replacement. In addition, there is less physician burnout, improved mental health, more effective physician leadership, and more balanced and engaged physicians. When physicians are at their best, everyone wins.


The struggles hit close to home

During my training, I was no stranger to suicide. A medical school classmate killed himself. 

Then, an international graduate with two children and a family in China hanged himself during the second week of our internship. We all knew he was struggling but had not known what to do. We were treading water ourselves.  The next morning, the residency program director brought our group of ten interns into a room and talked to us. "This is bad,” he said. “We care about you.  Here is the card for the psychologist. Call if you need help." I looked around the room at the other confused faces and honestly thought, what does he mean by “need help”?  I said to myself, Look Brett, screw your head on straight. You are on call and have a busy service. You need to get back to work.  

Two years later, my chief resident shot himself. I thought he had all the answers. He was a smart guy and had a desirable GI fellowship lined up. At the funeral, I went up to people I knew. Do you understand this? Can you explain this to me? Can you please tell me he had some label or diagnosis or something that I do not have? Chronic depression, alcohol abuse, or schizophrenia? Something? Anything?  How do I know I am not next in line?  There is always a line. On average, one physician commits suicide every day in America.  Every day!

But I was not next in line. Next in line was my friend Alex. He was considered by many to be the ideal internal medicine/pediatrics academic physician. I went to his wedding.  He met his wife when she was a fellow intern with me and Alex was our resident.  He had a family.  He even looked like me. How are they different than me? How close was I to where they were?

Look Brett, I said to myself. Screw your head on right.  You have a lot of … wait … it is not working.  You cannot figure it out. Who's next in line?

Then, one of my best friends and close partners left our organization. I had difficulty understanding why he left and felt the effects even more acutely when I had to absorb a number of his patients. This was the height of the opiate epidemic and some of the patients were very difficult. I did not know how to manage them well. In addition, I had an unmotivated, depressed medical assistant working with me and I did not know how to communicate with her. The triage nurse in our small clinic was not motivated to do her job. I was not comfortable with conflict, so I avoided her and did extra triage work. The clinic manager was too scared to confront the problems. The administration was well-meaning but not helpful. 

I felt like I was playing a new game and I did not know how to play it well.  I did not even know how to tell if I was successful.  Press Ganey surveys did not do it for me. About this time, Epic came online, and I struggled with efficiency. My wife had chronic debilitating migraines and we had three teenagers at home with no family support. I had extended family challenges. I was cut off from my emotions and I unknowingly built walls to contain them, not knowing I was cutting off my good emotions as well. 


A turning point and finding help

In 2014, my survival skills were not serving me. Life was closing in. I was tired, frustrated, angry, irritable, confused, fearful, and more. I took care of depressed patients and I prescribed SSRIs for them.  Would an SSRI help me?  I did not even have a doctor. Maybe counseling would help, but I did not know where to turn.  I did not have the time. 

I was too scared. During one particularly rough patch, I asked myself if I was suicidal. 

One night, I was sitting at home and finishing Epic charts. My wife handed me a card that said, "I think you need some help." I looked at the card that suggested I contact Dike Drummond, MD from the burnout prevention program,  www.TheHappyMD.com 

I said to her, “Don’t worry.  I just need more time. I can figure this out on my own. I just need to work harder.” 

My wife had heard me say this before. She was losing patience and my words were not as convincing to me as they had been before.


I asked myself, “Am I depressed?” 


I called Dike and set up a discovery session. This is a free one-hour “get to know you” session with the burnout counselor. At that point, I still did not trust him or anyone else. More than once, I almost cancelled the call. I thought, he does not know me. I am a very private, introverted person with my special problems.  

The next week, I completed the call and was shocked to discover within twenty minutes that he could see right through my walls and defenses. He saw the scared kid behind the walls. He saw and knew my patterns of behavior and thought. He knew where that place was, because he had been there. I broke down and agreed to work with him.

Dike explained that many of my patterns of behavior and emotion were not unique to me. There are patterns that are unique to physicians and emerge from our training.  Many of these are survival adaptations. This stunned me and was so reassuring. He told me I was not broken. There were patterns I could learn about and then modify.

Here are some of the typical patterns and misconceptions that Dr. Drummond described that physicians adopt that lead to burnout:

  • If I just work harder, things will work out.  
  • I am a smart guy/girl, so I will figure it out.
  • I need to do it all by myself.
  • I do not want to deal with this difficult patient, nurse, etc.
  • Compassion is important for other people but not for me.
  • My emotions are not safe.  I need to protect myself.
  • I feel like an impostor.

My work with Dike centered around twice-a-month one-hour coaching calls where we worked on emotional and skill development. We started every call with five minutes of gratitude and appreciation. What would I like to congratulate myself for?  What did I do right?  This was actually hard for me because I was more in the habit of beating myself up for what I had done wrong. I could easily list all the negatives, but I had trouble seeing the positives. After that, we would complete the work for the day. Some of the emotional work involved processing difficult emotions like shame, fear, anger.  I realized I had a lot of shame. For example, we discussed:

  • How to gain better access to my emotions and feelings.  
  • How to trust myself and others.  
  • How to have more self-compassion and more compassion for others.  
  • How to absorb positive feedback and not deflect it away.  
  • How to have a soft front and a strong back.

The area of skill development was wide-ranging. Communication skills were huge. I realized if I could be a better communicator, I could save a lot of time and prevent a lot of negative emotions. As I became better, I noticed how ninety-minute disagreements could turn into fifteen minutes. Three meetings could be one if I was more effective. Three-day arguments could be resolved in thirty minutes with deep listening and full presence.  

We did in-depth personality testing and self-awareness, and I learned how to more effectively interact with different personality types. I learned how to deal with difficult people like the nurses and patients. We did role-play and scripting.  

I realized that as I took more responsibility for the interactions, I developed new skills and the nurses changed their behaviors. In the past, I had believed that my role was to give the right answers, but I learned it was more important to develop the art of asking the right questions. I discovered how to run an effective meeting. What is the goal?  How do we know if we achieved the goal?  Can we stop after thirty minutes and consider it a success if we reached our goal?  I mastered Epic documentation techniques, created succinct, appropriate notes, learned stress management breathing techniques, mastered time management/batching approaches, practiced delegation, adopted marriage skills, enhanced my communications, and made firm dates on the calendar. I had been transformed.


Emerging from the other side

Coaching has changed me.  When physicians are at their best everyone wins.  As physicians, we need to trust, ask for help, and be supported along the way.  We need good leadership that makes coaching easily accessible, affordable, and encouraged.  We could spend one-tenth the amount it takes to replace one physician and invest it in the few hundred we already have. 

It is critical to understand that coaching programs are not just for impaired or problem physicians. These approaches are for growth minded, striving physicians who want to improve their lives and the lives around them. Highly achieving people in many fields have coaches.  Every sports superstar has a coach.  Most high-level business leaders have coaches.  Every coach I know has a coach of their own.  And the people at the top   the ones who train the other coaches - have networks of support and growth systems around the country.


It starts with each of us

Here is what you can do.  It all starts with you.  Take care of yourself and trust that others may be able to help you. Realize that you may not have all the answers to your life.  Reach out to others for connection and for mutual support.  Consider coaching for yourselves.   



Brett Linzer, MD is board certified in both internal medicine and pediatrics. He has been in practice with ProHealth Care for over twenty years. He has been a part of the Medical College for 18 years as a preceptor and mentor to 4th year students in his ambulatory clinic in Oconomowoc. He is the recipient of the Marvin Wagner preceptor award, ACP Wisconsin Community Physician and mentor award and the Milwaukee Academy of Medicine award for excellence in teaching. He can be reached at balinzer@phci.org 


Saturday, May 8, 2021

To Kill A Year - Poetry by Olivia Davies

 From the 5/6/2021 newsletter


Poetry by Olivia Davies



To Kill A Year

I wish I could show you in news clips
The loud clang of the beginning,
The silent empty of the middle,
The painful drone of the end

I wish I could show you in pictures the loss, 
But it was hidden behind, between, below
masks

the most deafening silence
the most provocative noise

I wish I’d never have to show you at all.





Olivia Davies is a graduating 4th year medical student who will be starting her residency training at Massachusetts General Hospital this summer. Her poem, To Kill A Year, will be featured in the upcoming edition of MCW’s Auscult: A Literary and Arts Journal.

Ms. Davies is an Associate Editor of The Transformational Times